32 and dying?!?

I felt a lump in my armpit. I ignored it for a few months. It didnt go away. Went to the doc and got it tested. My life forever changed. I was 32 and was diagnosed with invasive lobular carcinoma in my left breast. stage IIIc, yes, thats right just a knock on the door from the dreaded stage 4. i did chemo (taxotere, adrimiocin, cytoxin) my spelling is bad, sorry. i also did the normal radiation of like 30 + days. but i also had to do 5 years of tomoxifen, and 1 year of herceptin treatment because not only did i have invasive lobular carcinoma, i was also er/pr + and her2+. for a while i felt like life just sucked. i wanted to just lay down and die. why God, why me, why now, what the hell are my kids gonna do with out there mamma??? i wont lie, i was pissed! here i am over 5 years later kickin butt, and doing what i do. i keep up with my oncology appts and stay on top of my healthcare. i know i have to. but i refuse to be one of the stats....i am going to beat the stats. just watch me!!!!! GO TEAM PINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

jacqueline mcdermott
mauk, GA