WHY ME WHY NOT

IT all started March 2009 me and gp new straight away cut a long story short by april i was on chemo 7cm lump and lymph nodes affected after chemo i had mastectomy then cooked like turkey ready for Christmas 2009 pmsl.
i was on tamoxifen life continue 2010.
then march 2011 my son died aged 29 gutted heart broken.
2012 had reconstruction DIEP large scar from hip to hip but worth it.
2013 just a day case op to lift up good booby and tidy other loved the finish so here comes 2014.
yes come on april jumping up and down 5 years cancer free i said to my oncologist under study so you don't need to see me and she said no but when reporting back to the main man my fantastic oncologist he said no she don't get away that quick so another appointment to see him that was
august 2014
he asked how i have been told him i had pain in my hip which i said due to old age lol and said i have had a x-ray on my hip two weeks previous which was clear
he still wanted ct scan and bone scan but truth in side i new something wasn't right anyway went back for results september and my oncologist looked sad i new it before going into that room it was back well here we go again my ct scan clear but bone scan showed spine hip pelvic so on effected i felt sorry for my oncologist so now i have a palliative nurse bone strengthening injection hormone tabs i don't no how long i have but does anyone i can at least put my affairs in order i can do things that we all put off for another day i can appreciate each day and i can say UP YOURS CANCER i am a very strong person we are all born to die im not sad im not angry and to be honest i was not surprised it came back

DEBBIE
liverpool, United Kingdom